i miss you  / Heather Maxie(ballinger) (neice)
we never could say enough to tell anyone how much you meant to us we miss you both so much alot of times it is hard to breath or sit and not cry the pictures are so hard to look at no matter how much time passes the pain will never go away ive been back to the grave yard once since we said our goodbye but only for a few moments i cant handle looking down knowing you are there its just to hard i wish i could see you one last time to tell you i love you and so you would know how much you really meant to me i miss more evryday love you always heather Close

Thinking of You  / Ellie Sparks (Niece)
Herbie,
I have been thinking of you a lot lately. I miss you so much. I know that I was not around much after we grew up, but I miss you none the less. I miss the children we were, and the fine adult you grew up to be. Everytime I think about you I smother. I know that I should be happy that you are home with your mother, but I am selfish and want you here. One thing is for sure, my birthday will never be the same. I sometimes wonder if I am not cursed. I have lost so many people that I love on or within 2 days of my birthday. I guess that sounds crazy because God knew the day he would take you home before I was even born. Anyway, just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you today, but I think you already knew that.

I love you yesterday, today, and always.
Until we meet again,
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HELLO BABY BROTHER  / ROSE SIMPSON (SISTER)
HERBIE FIRST OF ALL I WANT TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH I LOVE AND MISS YOU,HERBIE I WENT TO THE GRAVEYARD YESTERDAY,THEY SET YOUR HEADSTONE,IT WAS SO BEAUTIFUL,HERBIE I LAID ON IT AND CRIED,HERBIE YOU SHOULD NOT BE GONE FROM OUR LIVES,WE HAD SO MANY MORE MEMORIES TO MAKE,IT WAS SO HARD FOR ME TO LEAVE YOU YESTERDAY,IT WAS THE FIRST TIME I HAD BEEN BACK,I THINK SOMETIMES I AM LOSING MY MIND,HERBIE I KNOW YOU LOVED DADDY MORE THAN YOUR LIFE,YOUR HEADSTONE SAYS"DADDY'S HERO'' HERBIE YOU REALLY WAS ,,BUT I KNOW IF IT WOULD HAVE BEEN THE OTHER WAY AROUND DADDY WOULD HAVE DONE THE SAME FOR YOU,I CANNOT IMAGINE WHAT YOU WENT THRU THE LAST FEW MIN. OF YOUR LIFE,HERBIE I AM SO PROUD TO CALL YOU MY BROTHER,YOU WAS THE BEST BROTHER ANY OF US COULD HAVE ASKED FOR,I WISH I WAS THERE TO TRY TO HELP YOU AND DAD THAT NIGHT,I AM SORRY FOR NOT BEING THERE WHEN YOU NEEDED ME THE MOST,CAN YOU EVER FORGIVE ME,HERBIE YOU WAS ALWAYS THERE FOR ME AND I THANK YOU SO MUCH,PLEASE HERBIE HELP US ALL THRU THIS,WE MISS YOU SO MUCH,I AM SO GLAD YOU NEVER HAVE TO FEEL PAIN AGAIN AND THE LORD KNEW YOU WAS ONLY GOING TO GET WORSE,I FOUND YOUR PAPERS WHERE YOU HAD THAT LAST BONE SCAN DONE AND I COULD NEVER IMAGINE HOW MUCH PAIN YOU WAS REALLY IN,HERBIE I WILL GO FOR NOW SO HAVE A GREAT TIME IN HEAVEN AND BE WAITING AT THE GATE WITH MOM AND DAD WHEN I GET THERE,LOVE ALWAYS AND FOREVER X0X0  ROSE Close

Dear Herbie  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie, I am so happy for you. You were so lucky to be able to ascend into Heaven with Dad. It is hard to be here without you and him. I know it would have been harder for you than any of us can ever even imagine. We had our families to help us through this, all you had was Dad. We love and miss you little brother. Please ask God to watch over us, things are not going so good here. Love you and sweet dreams, please give Daddy, Mommy and Carlos a hug for me. Tell them I miss them. Love you, Alene Close

Goodnight and Sweet Dreams  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie, I love and miss you. Sweet Dreams in Heaven. Love Alene Close

Dear Herbie  / Alene (baby sister )
Hi Herbie, I wanted to let you know Shirley Yocum called me yesterday and she told me how much she loved you and how she missed you. She told me she had told you if it wasn't for her being married to Lee, you were just the kind of man she would need. She also told me how you cried over Coleen and how you said you weren't meant to be loved. You were loved Herbie, you touched so many lives. It is hard for everyone to believe you are gone. I went to the graveyard today and I talked to you and Dad. I saw 2 beautiful deer when I first got there. I know you would have loved that. I want you to know Herbie, if God would have just let us keep you, I would have done everything I could to take care of you. I love you Herbie and I miss you so much. I know that you are happy in the arms of Jesus. I wouldn't wish you back in this hurtful world. Even though I love it because Everett and my children are here. I don't really love the world I am just afraid to leave them. They need me to take care of them. I know the Lord will watch over them, but I also know we still needed Mommy when she was taken to Heaven. It sure wasn't easy was it. (It's still not easy) I don't want my babies to have to hurt the way we did. Brandon is the same age now that I was when Mommy died and Allison is almost the same age as you were. I just can't leave them right now. I long to see you, but you know I have to fight to live. I have to get over whatever this is that is wrong with me whether it be lupus or whatever. I have to fight it. I do want to come to Heaven, but I need to be here a little bit longer. Give everyone a hug for me and tell them to be watching for me, because I am going to try my best to be the kind of person that the Lord will be proud to welcome home. Just like you and Daddy were. I love and miss you, your baby sister, Alene Close

Dear Herbie  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie,
You know that I dreamed fifteen years ago or more about what happened to you and Dad. I have told you about it before. You remember when I asked Daddy not to build that garage. I thought if the garage wasn't there, my dream couldn't come true. I saw it all in my dream Herbie, I know what happened to you and Dad that night.  It is just too hard for me to live with. I don't know how I can ever make it. I can't tell any of the other family about what I saw in my dream, it is just too much. How will I ever get it out of my head? The only thing that is helping me keep my sanity is knowing that you and Daddy are in the loving arms of Jesus and that you left this world for a better place. I love and miss you Herbie. I know you are happier now than you have been since Mommy died. You didn't know what life without Mommy would be like. I know you and Daddy are better off there. It is hard for me to wake up when I go to sleep. I wait for the dreams that never come. I haven't dreamed since you and Daddy died. I think I'm afraid to, afraid of what they will be. When I do finally dream, I am in hopes the Lord will bring me good dreams and not nightmares of the way we lost you and Dad. Until we meet again, Love Alene Close

Hi Herbie  / Alene (baby girl )
Hi Herbie,
I just wanted to say Hi and I miss you. I found some new pictures of you today in one of my picture albums Chriss said she would scan them in for me so I could put them on your site. It brought back some fun memories. I will put them on as soon as I can. I can't wait, they are some of my favorites. Goodnight Herbie, I Love you Close

Sad Day  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie,
Just two more days till mommy will be in Heaven for 21 years. You and I lost her when we were so young. I still miss her as much today as I did the day she died. Please give her a hug for me and tell her that I love and miss her. I long for the day when I can see you'all again. When I don't have to worry about the things of this world. Love you, Alene  Close

Hi Herbie  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie,
I just wanted to tell you, I was talking to a girl that I work with who used to work at Town and Country and she was telling me how she used to kid you about buying cartons of milk instead of a gallon and how you told her it tasted better out of a carton. She said she thought the world of you and Dad. Everywhere I go people tell me how much they thought of you and Dad. I believe now, more than ever, God only takes the best. Love and miss you Herbie, I had better get to bed, I have to work at least 12 hours tomorrow, as usual. Give Mom, Dad and Carlos a hug for me. Love you, Alene Close

Heavy Hearted  / Alene (baby sister )
Dear Herbie,
Today is just another day that I dread since the passing of you and Dad. I am trying to make myself look at your'alls pictures. It is hard for me to look at yours and Dads beautiful smiles in the pictures knowing I cannot ever really see you again. I thank God for the pictures we took on Daddy's last birthday. Someday I will be able to look at them and smile (I pray).  Everyone looked so happy. It is just hard to remember being that happy and sometimes I wonder if their will ever be a day when I don't feel such sadness in my heart. It feels so heavy. I never knew before what people meant when they said, don't be so heavy hearted, now I know. It just means sad beyond belief. I love you Herbie, please give the rest of the family a kiss for me. I miss you guys and I long for the day when I can see your beautiful smiles again. Alene Close

My prayers are with you  / Alma Mills

I know our precious angels are watching over us and one
day we will see them again.
What a reunion that day will be!
My thoughts and prayers are with you.
Hugs
Alma
www.angel-mills.memory-of.com

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The Broken Chain  / Ellie Sparks (Niece)
We little knew that morning, that God
was going to call your name.
In life we loved you dearly,
In death we do the same.

It broke our hearts to lose you,
you did not go alone;
for part of us went with you, 
the day God called you home.

You left us peaceful memories,
your love is still our guide;
and though we cannot see you,
you are always at our side.

Our family chain is broken,
and nothing seems the same;
but as God calls us one by one,
The chain will link again.

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missing you  / Teresa Wombles (sister)
hello herbie,i just wanted to say hi and i love and miss you , you are in a new home now with no pain and no worries and i bet you have not quit smileing yet and enjoy all your new life to the fullest and keep on smileing but just pray for all of us left behind because we are all sad about you and daddy being gone give mommy and carlos hugs and kisses for us please and just keep on shineing for the lord as you always did love you and miss you love teresa Close

Miss you very much  / Teresa Bowling (neice)
Just wanted to write and tell you I miss you very much.  I wish you were here but I am so glad you are with mamaw Alice and Carlos again, because I know you have missed them so much.  I am also glad you are not in pain anymore.  I know you are so glad to be home with them, but we sure do miss you down here.  I am so sorry I didn't get to say Happy Birthday, but I wnat you to know I was thinking about you all day.  But until I see you again I miss you and love you very much.  Love sis Close

HAPPY BIRTHDAY HERBIE  / Rosalie Simpson (sister)
HERBIE I WANT TO WISH YOU A HAPPY BIRTHDAY ,I WANT YOU TO KNOW I DID'NT FORGET IT, BUT YOU KNOW THAT BECAUSEI WAS IN THE HOSPITAL ,HERBIE ALL THE NURSES ,AND NURSES AIDS CAME IN AND TOLD ME HOW MUCH THEY WOULD MISS YOU AND DAD , HERBIE I WANT TO THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAVE EVER DONE FOR ME , I WOULD LAY AND JUST WAIT FOR YOU AND DAD TO WALK IN MY ROOM,NOW THAT I AM HOME I SIT IN FRONT OF THE WINDOW AND WATCH FOR YOU TO PULL IN THE DRIVEWAY , HERBIE WHAT AM I GONNA DO WITHOUT YOU AND DAD ,YOU ALL NEEDED ME AND I NEEDED YOU AND DAD ,I FEEL LIKE I AM ALL ALONE NOW ,MY KIDS YOU KNOW HAVE THEIR OWN LIFE AND DON'T NEED ME LIKE THEY USE TO DID, BUT YOU AND DAD WAS HERE EVERY EVENING, I KNOW YOU WAS IN A LOT OF PAIN ,I AM GLAD YOU DON'T HAVE THAT PAIN NO MORE ,HERBIE HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN AND KNOW I LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU SO MUCH, IF YOU HAD BEEN HERE WE WOULD HAVE HAD YOU SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY AND YOU KNOW IT,GIVE DAD AND MOMMY AND CARLOS A KISS FOR ME ,HELP US ALL THROUGH THIS, AND IF SOMEONE DID THIS TO YOU AND DAD I WON'T STOP TILL I FIND OUT WHO IT WAS, LOVE ALWAYS ROSE Close

Thinking of you  / Ellie Sparks (Neice)
Uncle Herbie,
I am sitting here thinking of you today and thinking about how brave you were to go into the fire to save Grandpa. You were Grandpa's angel. I realize this now more than ever. I beleive that God let you live as an infant to help Grandpa servive after Granny's death. I know that you were his driving force inlife for the last 21 years. I never saw the two of you apart from one another. That is love. That is why God took you together because you could not have servived without each other. What I saw as a tragic death God understood was a blessing. I know that now. It took me several nights of nightmares and dreaming about you to understand that you are where you would have wanted to be without Grandpa. 
Herbie you know that you were more than an uncle to me. Since we are so close in age you were and will always be my uncle, my brother, and my friend. Not to mention my partner in crime for many years. I will never forget the time we smoked a whole carton of Salem's in the attic of the white house. We were so sick. I guess that is why neither one of use ever started smoking. Of course that was just one of our many adventures. I still remember catching Auntie Pickles and Uncle Larrys bedroom on fire with magic candles, and riding bikes down the slate dump until we crashed. It is a wonder we servived as long as we did. 
Do you know what I find strange about us a adults? You never addressed me by the nickname you gave me as a child. You never called me EI. Everytime we saw each other or talked on the phone you would always say, "What are you up to today Ellie Irene," and I would always answer, " Not much Herbert Brewer Jr how about you." Then we would both laugh. 
I am sorry that I did not spend more time with you after Carlos died. I have no excuse for staying away except that my life got to busy. I have learned from your and Grandpa's death not to allow my life to be so busy that the people in my life don't know how much I love them. Until I can come back home permantely I plan to visit my family at least one time a year. I will visit you to and keep you up to date on your great nephew and neices. 
Give Carlos, Granny Alice, and Grandpa Herbert a kiss for me and tell them I love them. If you see Granny Stell and Froggie kiss them for me to and tell them I love them.
I love you Herbie,
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